problem its just a puzzle. depending on how we wane solve it. but mayb for now leaving a piece of puzzle may help eventough there wil b a hole. if i doesnt leave dat piece, i would lost even more alot of piece. eventough its hurting to leave dat piece but i wane TRY ! bcoz dat piece has disturbing my mind. well. to b sincere, (i hope dis dun hurt my friends ) i would even think to keep dat ONE PIECE n just take dat one n leave the others. N i even thinks to not leave any piece for myself. i would willing to leave anything n everything. i duno why. but leaving dat piece its taking my life. TIME MAY CURE. n there is sumetin i realy nidda tell my friends n i hope dey could understand.:
my mood r bad this few days, so i may come out wif some nasty words. well. im trying to control myself. but if real it come out, i wane say "im sorry". i knew myself. if im bad mood, i could even scold any1 even my parents. i dun care if this world r falling. i x tawu lar. my atitudude lai so kinda.
OKLA, byes for now. TATA.
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Wednesday, 8 July 2009
FRIENDS /
friends means alot sumetimes. but means nothing somethimes. i dun understand why am i leaving in this world? im just losing al the hopes of living. i just hope dat i wont open my eyes 2moro coz there is nothing left for me to open eyes for. why shuld i open eyes again ? there is nothing. no aim. other words, im hopeless. frm my msn shoutout :
my life r miserable without u. Thanks for completing it eventough i knew im nobody to u, but u r sumbody to me.
the shoutout means alot to me. its about sum1 realy special i think?
arh. Now sum1 its gotcha report dat i cut my hand. fark her mother off lar. (NOT TIFFA). if my parents got called, im gona fuck this gurl off. i dun care. dala take report card next week. KNN! im gona fark dat gurl off. go report lar. KANNEH eh. I cut not bcoz of her oso. go report. as if im in love wif her, i cut bcoz of her, dats why she wane report me. nothing related to her. seat there free2 go complain ppl.
TIFFA BDAY
owh dear.im so sorry dear dat i could not celebrate ur bday wif u dis Sunday. i wasnt in penang. *bows*. Happy bday dear. n im not coming to schl on monday oso, i wil miss u. i wil kiss u on tues pa. haha. i promise. haha. bday kiss. or on friday lo. hehe. inform me k? ahha. erm. i gona miss u ! i wil text u. haha. so dats it for TIFFA.
DIS SAT COULD NOT MAKE IT GO SKATE. SO SAD X[. heh. i dunwane go but im force to follow my parents. x[
my life r miserable without u. Thanks for completing it eventough i knew im nobody to u, but u r sumbody to me.
the shoutout means alot to me. its about sum1 realy special i think?
arh. Now sum1 its gotcha report dat i cut my hand. fark her mother off lar. (NOT TIFFA). if my parents got called, im gona fuck this gurl off. i dun care. dala take report card next week. KNN! im gona fark dat gurl off. go report lar. KANNEH eh. I cut not bcoz of her oso. go report. as if im in love wif her, i cut bcoz of her, dats why she wane report me. nothing related to her. seat there free2 go complain ppl.
TIFFA BDAY
owh dear.im so sorry dear dat i could not celebrate ur bday wif u dis Sunday. i wasnt in penang. *bows*. Happy bday dear. n im not coming to schl on monday oso, i wil miss u. i wil kiss u on tues pa. haha. i promise. haha. bday kiss. or on friday lo. hehe. inform me k? ahha. erm. i gona miss u ! i wil text u. haha. so dats it for TIFFA.
DIS SAT COULD NOT MAKE IT GO SKATE. SO SAD X[. heh. i dunwane go but im force to follow my parents. x[
mental break down /
Monday, 6 July 2009
now excellent. i just finished scolding GUAT WEI. asking her to fuck off. n ask her not to sms me ever again. i just could not handle even a small tiny lil thing. n im sad for nothing.im sad bcoz of some1. just name as 'A'. n dat 'A' just take me as normal friend. nothing special about it n im setting a prioty towards 'a' n leaving my besties behind. n now carrie strted complaining dat im ignoring her n she feels dat i n her friendship its getting apart. well. im not sum1 who realy hide my emotion. n i could just burst out for nothing. n get angry for nothing. i just could nt understand why i care so much about 'A'. 'A' even take me transparent in times. n im taking 'A' lik a QUEEN OF COUNTRY. i dunok. mayb im not taking 'A' as my friends but more than dat. but kinda. my mouth say i dun care. bla bla n bla but i knew myself the best. =,= n now im seriusly in the bad mood now. i try my best to hide my feelings as i dunwane ppl consider me as 'emo' but indeed my sum of besties realise it. dey 24 hours wif me. others duno about it. now. wad should i do now? just get everythg cool down. n x lama lg 'A' its goin to diseppear frm my mind (hopefully). indeed now, im a lil bit better as carrie understand my condition rite now. n luckily my parents its not adding anything bad dis few days. so hoping everything to get well soon as i would leave 'A' alone with his problem.